Torn between three loves?

I recently broke up with my GF, it was mutual but now she wants me back subtly she says just for boinking, but she also wants all the time and snuggly stuff...IDK that sounds like a plan to have me but not committ to me, but she is not ok with me having another partner. I have a woman that wants to start building a life together but I am having a hard time wanting her because she is too perfect. Isnt that crazy, she is perfect, I love her, but I have no interest in building a life with her & IDK Y, I want to try just bc that sounds riduculus, I should want to build a life with her right? Then I have another woman that is str8 but she wants me to play and expermint with on a spiritual ual level. So what shall I do, I cant or shouldnt have em all, but what do i do? I kinda want to drop them all but then isnt that showing my lack of trying? I feel compelled by love for my x but that didnt work b4 So maybe I should try with the girl that wants to build a life, but I have no desire for that other than the question of Y i wouldnt. Then the last girl that just seems fun, but shouldnt I want more. Do i deserve more than just fun times that lead to no where bc she is str8 and will leave me for a man. Hmmm what do u think? Thanks for ur imput